Monday, August 13, 2018

Wajud

Kbhi sochti hu ki mai kaun hu,mera wajud hai kya,
Ye ruh hai meri ya jism hai mera,ya dono ka milan hai wajud mera.

Tanhai me baith ker ;palko ko sehla  ker; jab  jhankiti hu apne bhitar ;tab samajh me aata hai ki ;ye do no to  hain  premi koi,

Ishk hai inka  gehra itna ki lafz hi nahi,
dhoodne se bhi koi aur ashik honge nahi.

Jab tak shath hai ,ye din aur rat hai,
Zindgi ke har pal ye sath hai.

Bichhadne ka dar hai inme itna,
Ki ek dusre se alag  ho jate fanna.

Mera hona hi ;inki prem kahani ka saksh hai,
Mera wajood hi ; inka prem-stambh hai.

Ham mishal dete hai mohabat ke kaii;
per kya ham hi ek mohabat ki mishal to nahi....

Ek kala

Ek kala thi ,kahi door kone me padi thi.
Dabi -kuchli andhere se ghiri ,apne wajud
se anjan,zindgi ki mar se kahi door thithuri sehmi khadi thi.

Ek ragir ne aise hi jane anjane me use awaz di ,
sunker us ahat ko wo ghabrai si ;sahmai si ;nikalkar bahar ayee ,
aur apne ladkhadate kapkapte hotho se budbudai,

sun ker uske lafj rahagir stabdh ho gaya aur soch me pad gaya ,
ki  kanha per chupi thi kala jise kisi aur ne kabhi nahi padha.

Fir soch me pada,ki..…......

kya mai hi hu iska janm data ya fir hu bas khuda ka ek ishara.

Wo tha ek parkhi , jise banna tha bhagirath ,
Bas pat kholne the us andheri gufa ke,aur
Kheechna tha use bahar,

Wo to ker gaya apne hisse kam,
Bus us kala ko ab nikharna hai tha baki

Aur wo chal di us rah..........

Ek sham thi

Ek sham thi ;chilmilati Dhoop ke bad thi,
jisme narmi  thi;jaise maa ke anchal me
 chhipker dharti Ko Nihar rahi,
  wo uski ada behad khoobsurat thi.

mai rikshe me thi;ghar ki oor thi ,
Thaki ,shant , rikshe ke samne niharti.
Apni uljhano Ko dharti uthati,
 Aur unme fasti ja  rahi thi;

fir  achanak nezre dai padi; fir bai,
Dekha ki saath mere thi gadiya kai,
Ek dusre se age nikalti gai.
Sab ko andekha kerti hue,
bas age aur age badti gai.
Sab Ko Lal batti Ko par kerna tha,
Us hod me age aur age badna tha.

Maine socha....

 hamari zindagi bhi to ek batti se dusri batti tak hai.
Daudte sab yaha; kuchh age Nikal jate ,
kuchh Wahi thehar jate,intezar karte,
Kuchh khud Ko koste,kuchh batti Ko,
,kuchh kisi ke aage badne ko,

kuchh na kuchh chalta sabke man me,
Nahi chahta thahrna koi,
Bas manjil ki bhukh hai sab me.
Bas badhne ka junun hai sab me.

Kuchh adheer  hokar ,
Bina soche  Bina samjhe,Bas Nikal padte hai;
Bach gai to;Doosri batti ki oor chal padte hai,
 nahi to bas wahi akhri manzil ban jati hai.

Aj man udas hai

Aaj man udas hai,dil me kitni bhadas hai.

Kahi chhipi  peer hai,jhatpatati si tees hai.

Aisa tabhi hota hai ;jab dil me dard  hota hai,

Man ashant hota hai;uljhano ka ambar hota hai.


Ye tabhi hota hai jab koi bat dil manta nahi,mashtiksh sweekarta  nahi.


Kyo bandhe aise bandhano me;Jaha ishk nahi,parwah nahi,Sath rehkar bhi apnapan nahi,

Koi kaise itna bedard beparwah ho jata hai,

Itna swarthi sankuchit kathor ho jata hai,

Kosna bas kosna fir khamiyo ke samundar me dubo dena,aur tab tak dubaye rahna

Jab tak antim saans ka nata sharir se na chhut jai.

Kya yahi astitv hai ,ya bas shrap hai koi,

Ya apne astitv  ko hi bhula de koi,


Fir khud ko khud se itna juda ker de ,

ki jab khud ko dhodho to bas thandi rakh  mile,

Jisme na koi jazbat baki na jeene ka umang.

Na koi josh baki na jindgi ka tarang.


Kya yahi  zindgi hai; ya khuda ka farman,

Jo deta  aisi zindgi,wo jee ker bhi dekhe zara.

Shayad tab samjhe is dard  ko; firkam ker de is gam ko,


Bas ab teri hi aas hai..........

Kashmakash

Zindagi ki kashmakash me fasti jaa rahi hu
Mai gehri aur gehri dhasti jaa rahi hu,

Samajh aata nahi duniya besamjh hai kyu
Kyo kisi ka visvas itna fika,ki ek lahar mita jata.

Zindagi khojte, per jo pass hai wo dikhta nahi
Khoj rahti umra bhar jo hai use sweekarta nahi

Bekadri  kar ,izzat utaar ,chhod dete hain hasne ko.
Samajhte nahi dard ko,bas chhod dete
Sehne ko.

Kabhi use samhal ker ,sahaj ker rakhha nahi
To kis haq se haq samajhte hai us per

Pehle insan ko samjho,uske pyar ko samjho,baki sab to hai umra bhar

Kahi ek galti se na ho jaye koi itna juda,
 ki dhundne  per bhi na mile uska nisssa.
 Bas  fir yade  reh jaye
Aur.......kone me padi wo uski dhul khati tasweer hi reh jaye.

Thursday, August 27, 2015

Has reservation outlived its significance

It were Gujjars few days ago, then Jats and now Patels. The agitation for caste based reservation seems far from over. In fact in last couple of decades it has only intensified as the scope of reservation has further widened and included in its ambit various state of the art technical, medical and management institutions. These institutions and services hold a place of high esteem in our country and when the admission to them is not just through merit but also on the basis of castes, they sure are going to breed feelings of disaffection against the reservation system.

The history of reservation system can be traced back during the drafting of Constitution of the country when unanimously it was agreed that the inequalities in society compel the government to take steps for the betterment of people who are low in the hierarchy of society. This positive discrimination quite justifiably was required for the empowerment of weaker sections in the society. It helped in making sure they they feel that the system and the opportunities it presents are not biased towards select powerful persons in the society but available to them as well. For this reason reservation was allowed for the weaker sections namely the scheduled castes and the scheduled tribes in the academic and government institutions, job as well as law making. After the Mandal commission, it was extended to Other Backward Classes too.

So far so good. But let us analyze if the reservation has been able to do justice to the aims it sought to achieve. To my mind there were two important goals which were targeted by reservation. First, to empower the weaker sections of the society and secondly to reduce caste consciousness as the basis of continuation of inequalities in our system was caste system. In both these aims it has failed miserably.

The benefits of reservation have not reached to the poor and lower sections of society as they should have. Rather they have been reaped by the top few who are using the benefits repeatedly thus denying the other needy their due rights. The very assumption of reservation based on caste is on a wrong ground as caste might have been an indicator of social and economic backwardness of the people at the time of independence  but not anymore. Our forefathers who drafted the Constitution  also desired to keep this provision on temporary basis only.

And this system of reservation has very well helped in reinforcing the caste system further instead of reducing or eliminating it altogether. Caste consciousness is strongest than ever before. This is because categorization based on caste has been linked to economic and political benefits. And this has acted as a positive reinforcer for people to maintain their identities based on caste.

Isn't this reservation system then again trying to handicap people's abilities by denying them opportunities because of their birth. This used to happen thousands of years ago and now its happening again. Only the roles seem to have been reserved.

So has the time arrived when we should have debates on ending the reservation system and instead think of other measures to improve the education system in our country. Isnt there a need to again have an open system of competition to jobs and academic institutions and selecting people purely on merit basis? The reservation system seems to have outlived its utility in its current form. There is a need for a serious reform to prevent further stratification of the society. But the bigger question is - do we have the will?

The first meeting

Siddhartha seemed to be in a strange hurry. He was walking at double his normal pace, but there seemed no sign of gate 2. On a normal day perhaps he might not have noticed the time, but today each minute seemed  like an hour. And the rush of the passengers at this peak time, which was further slowing down his pace, was adding to his frustration.

After roughly 15 minutes, he was standing out of gate 2. Outside there was a crowd of people, some clinging to the railing intently looking at each passenger who was coming out, checking for their acquaintances, some coming from hotels holding placard and competing amongst each other for a suitable place so that their placard would be most visible. 

Amidst all this commotion, Siddhartha wondered how he would find Ragini. He took out his phone but to his horror, the battery had died. He cursed himself for not charging the phone in the plane and began thinking that she might be trying his number and would be getting angry. He looked here and there for a charging point but none was visible. He started getting impatient, his head going blank.He sat in a bench near to where he was standing, took deep breaths and started explaining himself mentally that this area is not very large and if he looked around for her, he could find her. This reassuring thought calmed him a little bit. He wiped the sweat from his forehead, drank a sip of water from his bottle, and got up.

"Let's start from this direction", he told himself mentally, pointing to an area opposite to where he was sitting. There were a lot of benches and he started going to all those where a girl was sitting alone. Near each such bench he passed casually looking at the face from the corner of his eye in a fraction of second and moving away lest he be caught in an uncomfortable situation of staring at some girl and getting in trouble.

Ten minutes passed but without any luck. He was starting to get impatient now. Maybe she had left after waiting for sometime as his phone was not reachable. This thought gave a chill down his spine and he started cursing himself even more for being such a stupid for not charging the phone. But then he tried to comfort himself by logically arguing that it wasn't very long and she would not have left so early. Trusting on this logic, he turned and started looking at the other side. 

This area was relatively vacant with very few people seated on the benches. Suddenly, he saw that to his left a girl was sitting alone in the bench. She was facing the other side and only her hair were visible to him. Praying that this be her, he walked close to the bench and reaching to the side of the bench, he cleared his throat and said. "Execuse me"

The girl turned her face towards him. In a fraction of second he realized it was her. She was exactly like school days but with some difference. She was wearing a black salwar kameez with a black dupatta across her neck. Her hair was open and falling on her shoulders, partially covering her earrings which seemed to be tiny inverted silver bowls hanging by a silver chain. There was a golden chained watch on her one hand while the other had a metallic bangle, suitably chosen to match her attire. He had always seen her in the school uniform and she was looking very pretty and beautiful.

"I said hi". She smiled and Siddhartha realized that he had been standing there awkardly just looking at her and didn't even greet her.

" Oh, sorry. Hi, how are you? Waiting for long?"

"No, just for last one hour. Phones don't work in the airport?"

"They do. Why?" Siddhartha trying to look innocent.

"Yours seems to be out of battery for some time", she remarked.

" Yeah, hardly around the phone. Don't care if its charged" Siddhartha tried to play down, not willing to expose his stupidity.

"Big people", she chuckled.

Embarrassed, he sat down on the bench.  It was all seeming like a dream. Just in the morning it was decided that they will meet and they were sitting next to each other in a strange place meeting after six years. 
There was few minutes of silence. 

" Do you like cold drink?"

"Coke", she said.

He rose and bought a Coke from the counter nearby.

Offering her he said, " Quite humid today".

"Yes, Mumbai gets humid at this part of the year. And then there are rains. You would want to come here in rains. The whole city is flooded. Last year, this airport had water upto the knee height for some time.", she exclaimed in excitement.

They started talking about different things. Life after school. How they never talked to each other during school. Joked about few teachers and school friends.

All this time Siddhartha was looking at her face while she was talking. She had beautiful dark black eyes which she used to close at time when talking about some exciting and funny thing. Breeze of air made her hair lock fall over her face across her cheek which she was picking and tucking behind the ear, not getting bothered about the repetitions.

Then suddenly she took out a tiffin from her bag and offered him some kachori. 

Without thinking Siddhartha blurted " No, thanks!". Suddenly smile disappeared from her face and she kept it back in her bag, seemingly hurt by this response. Siddhartha realized his stupidity immediately and guessed that she would have prepared it herself. He wished he could disappear at that moment, feeling so embarrassed with his sudden reaction. He didn't have the presence of mind to ask for forgiveness and just sat there with a blank head. Anyways he thought the damage had been done.

But this didn't seem to have a very lasting effect on Ragini's mood and she started talking as cheerfully as before. Time seemed to be running very fast as within few minutes it was time for Siddhartha flight and if he didn't proceed immediately, he would miss his flight. Both of them didn't want to leave but had to. Shaking hands, and bidding goodbye to her, Siddhartha started moving towards the entrance gate. At the gate he turned back. Ragini was still standing there, looking towards him, smiling and waving good bye. He smiled, raised his hand, and next minute went inside.